Our young adult’s retreat was a time where I found myself being refreshed by His Word and encouraged by my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. When I first heard that we were having a retreat, I was a bit hesitant in going. I would define myself as an extrovert but over the years, I began to close doors for people to come into my life due to various reasons. I became complacent with maintaining my relationships with the few selective friends that I have. As the retreat date grew closer, I felt a tugging in my heart to attend. I prayed about retreat. God revealed to me that being closed off towards others was all due to my selfishness. I asked God for forgiveness and a change of heart. I am grateful that I went because I got to know precious people in our ministry on a deeper level. These are people I would see in passing on Sundays and at various church functions, but never had the opportunity to go past exchanging greetings. I was blessed by the brothers’ and sisters’ openness to share their life stories with me.
Our guest speaker, Pastor James Han from Redeemer Presbyterian Church, gave a message about going to the Lord and finding rest (Matthew 11:28-30). It’s a passage I have read many times before, but did not truly understand what it meant to find rest and take God’s yoke upon me. Pastor James shared that one day, we won’t be able to suffer for Christ. Those words struck me. At times, when I am struggling in life, I would semi jokingly tell my friends that I wished Jesus would come and take me home. I would say that because I wanted to avoid going through my suffering and take the easy way out. After Pastor James said that, I realized that I had the wrong mindset. I was being self-centered. Going through trials and tribulation is a tool for me to use to share the Gospel. As I reflect on my past, my lows always came with a high. God’s provision over me was constantly present. I know I will be resting in Heaven so do everything I can now for the Kingdom with joy.
“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from Him. He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God. – Psalm 62:5-7
As I reflect on our getaway, I have found true rest in God and God alone.