My life is busy and it doesn’t seem to slow down. My mentality in life was to work hard and not complain even when I’m exhausted. As of now, I work in the hospitality industry, working long hours and hoping it’s all going to pay off. I think if I put in the time, work hard, and dream big, I’ll be that much closer to living up to my goals and expectations.
I thought fixing my attitude and growing thicker skin would help me reach my goals and ambitions. But everyone gets burned out and needs time to recover. When I was at the Young Adults’ retreat a few months ago, I told myself I’m on vacation. But little did I know that God was going to rock me. I forgot what it meant to truly rest and to enjoy living in the moment rather than being so fixated on the future.
I think about Psalms 62:5-7, “For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence for my hope is from him. He only is my rock and my salvation my fortress; I shall not be shaken on God rests my salvation and my glory my mighty rock, my refuge is God.”
This verse speaks to me because in the craziness of life, in times of stillness… our Lord speaks volumes. He reminds me that He is my rock, my salvation, my fortress and nothing can shake that up, not even the busyness of life. In this time of rest, I’m beginning to learn how to rest in Him and to put my trust in him.
1 Peter 5:7, “Trust in me with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding.”
When I struggle with my personal life, whether it be my shortcomings as a follower of Christ, not getting the job opportunities, or losing close relationships with people I love… I find myself unable to understand what is going on and why it is happening. I don’t understand why these things are happening in my life. But at the retreat, I learned that you don’t always have to understand. Instead, I learned to place my rest and trust in His occurrence. Jesus doesn’t always provide details, but he promises that our struggles will be addressed. So here I wait in silence for his still voice, trusting that he is my refuge.