I am a planner by nature. As a child, I would line up my Barbie dolls and dress them and do their hair in an assembly line; as a teen, I meticulously wrote down all my school assignments and extracurricular activities in my planner, color coded together with my books and highlighted according to priority; and as an adult, I have calculated each step of my studies and career in order to accomplish and obtain certain set targets and objectives. I have a 5-year plan, a 10-year plan, set time limits and markers for when I want to achieve each coming life goal, and a calendar that includes everything from lunch plans with girlfriends to friends’ kid’s birthdays.
As much as I planned, I never set New Year’s resolutions. I figured that there was no need for resolutions for the year given that I had already planned out every future step that I should take. I mean, did I really need another To Do List or list of goals when my life was already so planned, designed, and manufactured? No. But what I failed to realize in those plans was that I never planned for God; what God desired of me, for me, and to do with me. It was only a few years ago when I attended a conference where one of the speakers shared about setting resolutions for each year with God—a list of items or topics to pray over for the year. That was 2017—the year that I prayed to Be Uncomfortable, and that I would seek His glory over my comfort. God most assuredly answered that prayer for that year. I was stretched and pulled, and it was souncomfortable. (I wouldn’t recommend praying for it unless you really want it to happen). This past year in 2018, my prayer was to Love Others. And oh my, did God answer my prayers again, by growing me to love those with His love for us, when our capacity for love fails.
Now, as I begin 2019, I start the year with renewed requests before Him: that I would be Humble, have a heart of Gratitude, and Trustin His provision, because as much and as mightily as I may plan my steps and my life, His will, timing, and way will stand. So for this year, I am planning on His plan, for He will reveal them to me each in His perfect time, for “Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” Proverbs 19:21 ESV.
Happy New Year, Bethel English Church!